(find yourself new gig / this town ain't big enough for two of us)
i haven't done anything except that comic/tragic convention holiday homework document thing today. that, and have coffee and start reading malcolm gladwell's david and goliath. (still on the fence about it, but i'm only on page 76, so we'll see.)
i have also painted my nails this really pretty shade of periwinkle blue.
uhm.
it's december and that means two things - one, the time for the somewhat ritualistic and impulsive purging of all my blog archives from the past year is almost here, and two, it's almost been a year since the... thing. (+ 12 days to a year since rejection letters and drunk calls and ugly things. i still remember. i do.)
(i am still trying to deal with the truth that things will fall apart. not always, of course, but sometimes when you need them to fall together the most. and you have to deal. deal deal deal with it because that really is the only thing you can do.)
(the typing bar thing is blinking on and off and i am thinking of the words to say)
i'm thinking that i should probably do away with this space entirely and migrate elsewhere because this place contains and has seen many things and events that should be dead, that should not be relived and should not be remembered through text. i'm thinking that the purpose of a blog should be to remember the things worth remembering; and the things that don't need remembering should be written elsewhere and torched subsequently.
(dat symbolism.)
i know i'm choosing my words really carefully right now; the punctuation and proper syntax indicates so.
so this is it; in about three hours i think i'm going to delete everything here save for this post and find a new house for my thoughts. hopefully someplace happier and brighter and with more pictures and things worth remembering.
(and not just like, y'know, pictures of coffee as evidenced on my instagram account.)
xx
in other news, the past two months have been relatively busy. have been working through proposals and allocations and things. have been going out with wonderful people that i haven't seen in ages. have also coached a camp - that was a pretty influential experience. might talk about it more in another space. have been doing my best to finish up the holiday homework nonsense (which isn't actually working out very well) and also have been looking forward to chairing prepmun in a few days.
think i'm doing okay.
xx
tldr;
moving my thoughts elsewhere, and have had a pretty decent few weeks except for the occasional... thing.
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